Monday, September 19, 2011

rushin' rushin' rushin' around

Everything is instantaneous these days. Push a button, and bing! mail sent. Push a different button and bing! kitty litter to your door in 2 days. Log on to your computer and bing!bing!bing! thirteen emails await your reply. Texting, cell phones, internet, gaming systems, vending machines- heck you can buy anything in a vending machine nowadays... all give people instant gratification. It has become so intertwined in our lives that we begin to be impatient. If someone doesn't respond to your email within a day, you are wondering if you said something to offend them, or if they are ever going to respond to you. It's amazing what technology has done to our society- and it is not all good. I am guilty of this too. Just the other day I was wondering why my contact at this wedding venue had not responded informing me of how to sign the contract for the venue. I was complaining that she was taking forever. Then I checked my sent box. It had only been TWO days! How impatient can one get? I had to remind myself that not everyone checks their email every 5 minutes like me.

Learn the art of patience. Apply discipline to your thoughts when they become anxious over the outcome of a goal. Impatience breeds anxiety, fear, discouragement and failure. Patience creates confidence, decisiveness, and a rational outlook, which eventually leads to success.

- Brian Adams

Monday, September 12, 2011

slacking much?

Seriously neglected blog, I apologize!!!

Lately I have been on a self-esteem low (very rare for me) and have been having more of an increase in indecisiveness and self-doubt. Today in the dressing room, I decided NO! I will stop being indecisive, stop worrying about what people think and just do what I think is best... because in the end that will make me the happiest. I'm talking mostly about Wedding planning. I love wedding planning! It's so much fun and I love expressing my creativity, making a collaboration of the hodge podge of ideas I find online... finding ways to tweak things so they fit us. I would definitely love event planning if I had a group of minions to carry out my desires and vision. I plan, you execute! Haha.

Anyways, I think we finally settled on a wedding venue. And although I have qualms with a few things, I definitely am looking forward to finding ways of making it work for us!

Back to crazy school...

Wednesday, June 22, 2011

racism is still present.

just finished reading The Help. It was an excellent book, well-written with an overall uplifting spin. But it got me to thinking... many of us think that racism today is limited, or even dead. But in reality racism is a present and alive.

Example 1: When in Kentucky, we (our group of Asian friends) often encounter weird stares and even some comments.

Example 2: I ALWAYS get called "chinita" - I am NOT CHINESE!

Example 3: When trying to get into clubs in both Las Vegas and Los Angeles, I often find that groups of Asians have a difficult time getting into clubs. In fact, it is blatant racism that occurs in this setting. Groups of Caucasions parade into the club while Asians who have been standing outside for an hour solely based on the fact that they are Asian. This makes NO sense to me since many a time these are the people who will spend the most money in the club. And if there are that many of them standing outside, it is obviously the crowd the club is attracting. Lastly, why should there be a difference between us all anyways? Everyone is there to have fun, right?!

The examples go on and on, but I just thought it was interesting to see that there is still a divide and still segregation and priority given to people based on skin color- or hair and eye color.

Tuesday, June 7, 2011

Odds & Ends

Wow, has it really been so long since I have posted? Neglecting blog = bad!

Anyways, obvi I got engaged since my last post, it was all that I imagined and more. My man is so ridic awesome. <3!!!

It's nearing the end of our fantabulous first year of dental school. It's been filled with a whole lotta madness, and towards the end a whole lotta misplaced concentration. We just had our Cl II Amalgam competency, with an indirect #14 prep. I have to say this was the most confident I have been going into a competency, and the first time I did not panic! Maybe it was Dr. Stevenson's pep talk right before. I should tell him to give me one of those every competency. We also finished up with Musculo, for which our grade was based on one 47 question final. I hate classes like that. I need at LEAST two tests!!! Or at least more questions. Don't you just hate it when you study and study and only get to test on 1 of the 23423 things you studied? Me too.

Anyways, ONE MORE FINAL tomorrow and I am officially DONE WITH FIRST YEAR! I can't believe this day has come so soon. But THANK GOD, literally. Couldn't have done it without Him.

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

sicky poo

I have never been to the doctor as often as I have since I started dental school, except for maybe when I was born or something... and even then! First I had a weird hurty pustule, next I had lower right abdominal pain for over a week and saw three different doctors for that, none of whom could dx me. Next I have this wicked cough that sounds like a seal barking for a week... and I am so desperate I must go get medication so I can sleep (and so my bf can sleep too). The events for which I have NOT seen a doc for this year include: pretty much fractured toes and ongoing sternum pain. Why? Because there's nothing anyone can do about that or no one can dx me!

I am just afraid the doctors are going to think I am a big hypochondriac, which I am definitely not. I have just had poor health for this year... attribute it to whatever you want. All I am saying is that it's super super annoyinggggggg spending all this $$ on doctors who don't even give me answers. For spring break I have to go to the optometrist, obgyn and possibly dentist for all my yearly appointments I have been putting off. Plus after all this I want to see my naturopath so she can detox me. I am a mess!!!! When did I get so old?!

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

sans sweets.

McQ, the model

Cutest pic of BF ever

more modeling

This is the first year I am officially doing lent! Honestly, I don't think it has ever been emphasized to me to do lent, and before I thought it was only in the Catholic sector of Christianity. But I now understand the meaning behind it all. So for lent, I have chosen to give up sweets. I LOVE sugar. So much more than I realized now that I cannot just trot over to my cupboard and pop a piece of chocolate into my mouth. And today, Dannielle had cakes and cupcakes galore for her bday and I could not touch a single one, although the smell of it was divine. It's funny how giving up something can make you appreciate it that much more!

Today in clinic I was quite upset because I was experimenting with different instruments, and I found a ball burnisher that was the appropriate size to use on pediatric restorations. Unfortunately, my restoration kit did not HAVE that ball burnisher (it was Dannielle's). When I asked the faculty if I was able to obtain one, they said no. But they did not just say no, they said it in an annoyed fashion, as if I was wrong to even ask. That really upset me because, as I explained, I have been having trouble doing my restorations and this instrument actually helped me doing it. In fact, I ALMOST failed my last competency because I was having THAT much trouble doing them. Wouldn't you want to help a student out and if it's as easy as procuring an instrument that helps her, would you not do it? Well I understand that this is not always possible, and there are procedures and whatnot, so I just asked Amazon instead. And now, my little 27/29 ball burnisher is in the mail!! :) Happy ending to this tale of woe. Haha.

Now back to neurons, Golgi Type I and II.

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

misplaced fear

If it's been one time it's been a million
Try to be perfect but it's tearing me apart
The fear of failing is so familiar
But you're breaking down the fences in my heart
I'll slow down breathing in
breathing out

I'm waking up I'm breaking out
I'm leaving behind the fear and doubt
I'm letting go I'll trust and fall
Cause I know there's healing in your arms

So I've been striving running in circles
Through the fight I've forgotten who I am
God I am longing to break the cycle
To lose myself so I can start again
Slow down breathing in breathing out

It's time to give it away gotta give it away
(Give it away) Let your love take over
Love is way you came you gave it all away
(Give it away) Now love is taking me over

Oh yes I know there's healing in your arms
There's healing healing in your arms

Where do we get the courage to do things? I think as I grow older I have less and less courage, why is that? Is the reality of what we have been through setting in? Do negative past life experiences cause us to use more caution? I suppose that is what we are meant to do, to change with experience, but shouldn't the positive from taking risks also play into it? I just find myself looking back and wondering where I got the courage to do things such as travel to Japan alone for six weeks, remain the President of a sorority full of back-stabbing and negative energy, apply three times to dental school, get a tattoo... and how I now feel apprehensive at the sight of all the responsibilities that lie before me as student body vice president, ASDA secretary and health fair coordinator... and dental student in the midst of one of the toughest classes we will encounter in dental school. I know I can do it, I am all about full platters and glasses half-full. So when did this anxiety creep in? When did this feeling of "what am I supposed to do" appear? I know that I will accomplish everything I need to, only through the strength of Christ.

Monday, February 14, 2011

just believe.

BFFs at Radhika's Surprise Bday

Me & the Bday Gal

Me and Bee Eff before he got in troubs

BFFs at Fashion Island

This weekend was uber tiring. Lots of fun, good times with friends, but I need a vacay now! I passed IDIT with flying colors, fortunately, but I BARELY passed my last competency exam. I don't know what it is, but I get so panicky and nervous when it comes to competencies. In clinic, I do just fine and skate along with all the exercises. Maybe it is because I often feel lost in clinic, the initial instruction is minimal and I often find myself just making up what I have to do until I get my first piece of criticism. I understand this teaching technique, it is called throw them into the fire. However, it makes me nervous and unsure of myself. Plus I am the kind of person who doesn't like messing up, so if my prep or restoration sucks, I find it hard to show the faculty to get the constructive feedback I need to fix it. Is that weird? Well I still do it, but everything about being in clinic makes me nervous, which is why I think I dread the days we are in there. Lots of waiting around, noise, and I don't drink water for four hours which is never a good thing. It's like all of the balance I work so hard to achieve gets thrown off track!

Anyways, lately I have not been doing much service, there have not been that many opportunities. But now that I am the new ASDA secretary and Health Fair Coordinator... I guess that will keep me on my toes. I am also running for Executive SGA VP- and while I hope I get it, it makes me nervous too. Don't you think it is so funny how as you get older you fear more and more things? Sometimes I look back on my life and wonder where I got the courage to do certain things, like travel to Japan for six weeks on my own. But I still feel like that was one of the best experiences of my life. And one that actually remains vivid in my mind!

Back to this weekend- it was a lot of fun spending time with my friends basically all weekend. It makes me wonder how much I miss out on when they're doing things without me because of school. But I know I cannot have it all, and trust me I am so so grateful for everything that I have and for being in dental school and doing well. We lost four of our fellow students last week, it is so sad but drives the point home that I definitely need to keep working hard, and believing in myself and in the fact that I am were I am supposed to be.

Friday, January 28, 2011

dent vs med

Kings Game Date Night w/ Bee Eff

Best friends dinner

Pipeline January Academy

In my experience within the medical field, I have come to find that a LOT of physicians view themselves as superior to the medical world. When patients call in and identify themselves as "Dr so and so" employees are required to ask what kind of doctor, which is understandable. You want to write the correct letters following the person's name in their chart. But if the patient says "a dentist, or a professor, or a PhD," the office staff has been trained to think "oh, not a REAL Dr." I resent this fact!!! All of these people deserve the title of "Dr" because they have worked just as hard, if not harder, to achieve that title. We show great respect to physicians, and we should be able to have the respect as well. I am not saying that physicians don't have it hard - I would not, and do not want their job. But every person is trained and specialized in their own field.

I, of course, will use dentistry as a prime example. Dentistry is a physician who specializes in the mouth, akin to how a dermatologist is a physician who specializes in the skin and disorders thereof. Why is that any different? Why does that deserve less respect? In our current curriculum, we fully learn what the physicians do, PLUS the hand skills and dental aspect.

It has been said that medical school is harder to get into, but dental school is harder to get out of. I will have to agree with this statement because I am basically going through DO and DMD training at the same time. Not only do we take all of our core classes with the DO students, and have the same tests, and get graded by the same guidelines, but we also have to learn the dental side. This is basically a whole new schooling type of its own. We have to learn hand skills, spend HOURS drilling, learn a completely different set of information regarding the basic sciences- all while learning clinical cases about the lower extremity... which may not be the most pertinent to our practice, but we do it anyways.

I fully believe in learning the medical side of things, because it makes you more aware of the person as a whole. More aware of the fact that the oral cavity it just a part of the systems together. Do I wish we had more time to digest the things we are learning? Why, yes. But that's not the way it goes.

Sometimes you just have to dig, and push yourself to finish.

And then it will all be worth it.

Cherish K. Hirano, MHA, DMD (in 2014)

Wednesday, January 5, 2011

New Year... New Me? I think NOT.


Christmas Dinn w/ Sisterhood

New Years in Vegas

It's 2011!!! I have successfully completed 1 semester of dental school and am procrastinating on my second as I type! I think break took all of my willpower right out of me. Or maybe it's this cold I have. Whatever the case may be, I am eternally grateful for 2010. So many people were fb-ing how their 2010 sucked and 2011 is their year! Well for me, 2010 was a great year. Every year is a great year... no matter what. We are lucky to be living, and we should enjoy as much of it as we can!!!

2010 gold stars:
- getting into WesternU!
- new friends @ dental school
- old friends : L4, Sisterhood, 310 krew
- another year w/ my love!
- family family family
- learning new traditions that have existed in my family for years
- making new traidtions with my honey
- New York, June 2010
- All my SF and Vegas trips
- community service
- a whole year with the kitties

2011 hopes and dreams:
- lose the weight gained from the wrong shot *dundundun*
- take my vitamins regularly
- get good grades
- stay on budget $$$ (this is a hard one!)
- KIT with friends
- run for positions in ASDA & SGA
- run more
- pray more
- go to the snow!
- internal cleanse
- scrapbook
- find time to go to all the Drs appointments I've been skipping
- GET MY HAIR CUT (been saying this since 08-2010)

"only got 86400 seconds in a day to turn it all around or throw it all away. gotta LIVE LIKE WE'RE DYING" ... or live like we are LIVING!